I can’t lie, even the best plans don’t always go according to your best intentions. When I started back at work, I had a rough idea of how we wanted to do things. A was still taking two naps a day and I was still nursing her. The first several weeks, in fact, meant that my body went through some major adjustments as well.
Gone were the days of mommy-baby nap times, nursing on demand and having to sit for nearly 8 hours in the same spot. So how did I do it? I made an idea of a plan and filled in the gaps as we went through each experience.
My body learned to sit in an office chair, though the back pain on the first day made it nearly impossible to sit still. I also got A used to nursing only once a day, and eventually my body slowed down the milk-making. I also re-learned what it meant to stay awake longer. I was no longer tiring myself out holding and chasing a baby and instead did a mental workout. Just as tiring, but without the muscle aches.
Here I am, 3.5 months after and I am claiming that reclaiming my work life while adapting to being a first-time parent can be done. We just need to talk about how to do it more.
I have to have the people I work with understand that I really can only be in the office 9-5. My husband also understands that because of this, I sometimes have to take my work home with me. But most importantly, everyone needs to know that being a Mom comes first. A misses me so much, that when I finally get home, she doesn’t want to let me go. So even though I am away, making a living and reclaiming my career, she doesn’t care. I am mom and among all other things, I always will be.